3 post for today, and this is NOT a gaming/quiz post
I just wanted to write what I felt today.Went out in the morning to jubeat with John at amkhub till 3pm. Cause John needs to go back to office after that.
And then I went home and slept. Till I woke up at around 10pm.
And then I on my computer. feeling very bored. Went to bathe. And then came out and sit in front of my computer again.
Then I saw Daphne's email. Seeing her name, it reminds me of... Eri. Afterall they were close friends.
Anyway I am happy for her, it seems like she and her bf has patched up. I think. Well not going to purposely go sms her and ask her that.
And remembering Eri reminds me of... another girl who I had once let her go and then patch back again only to let her go... later.
It seems like she has found her own happiness too.
Why am I writing the above crap. Simple.
I suddenly felt a sense of loneliness/emptiness after all of these "reminds". Loneliness/emptiness is a fearsome thing. That is one of the reason I patched up with the girl whom I broke up with just few hours within. (And I broke up again because I hadn't had the courage to be with her, I saw the future, but I dun see myself brave enough to go through the storm. And that alone makes me painful, and I decided to let go. Oh well she let go first.)
Oh well. Weird thing is, all of these does not involves jojo. Wakaka. Maybe cause we weren't that close afterall. Though she has butterflies in her stomach(Did she eat some butterfly worms or what?)
My msn title still applies. 僕に、人を愛する資格なんて。。。
I have probably gone through alot of relationships(and what nots) to really be that tired(again, my msn title). However, it seems that a person can't live alone. I lay on my bed, thinking and thinking, and really hope there is that someone who is beside me now to give me a hug, a kiss. A comforting presence. In the lonely room of mine.
Oh sure my family is ard, but that's a different feeling. A different feeling from, when your cpl is around. When you can really have someone to talk to. When you are really in love. When...
PS: This is not an emo post. It is just an emotion, a feeling, that I felt. I'm too old for this emo shyt that is meant for youngsters. I am still positive, waiting for the one to come or never come. Doesn't matter. As Fiona says...
Be Happy. I am gonna live everyday to the fullest!!! <---- Optimistic thinking, but it ain't too bad.
posted by Sharn @ 2:42 AM
