(Not so) Happy Birthday Moomoo!!!
Ok so it's my birthday. And probably the worst birthday I have in years. Looking past my birthdays I remember the secondary school peeps, the outside pple mj kakis, my poly friends, army friends, and BBians celebrating my past birthdays. Chalets, sentosa madness, steamboats or even simple ktv+dinner last year(although simple but celebrating with special person, the feeling will be THAT special). This year there's nothing except dinners. Dinners, dinners dinners. 2 steamboats at that too(though friday one isn't considered a steamboat with the main elements of eating steamboat not existing).Since I gave an email account for those who don't have blogger acct to use that to come visit my blog, I suppose there are alot of pple who come my blog peep and STILL dun tag. So I will say this: For those who came on saturday thanks for coming. It's a long time since I see you peeps. Overseas de overseas, families de families, relationship de relationship, at my age I guess it's hard to gather the old group of friends that I so like to be with. Everyone has their own stuff to do, and I am glad you peeps still took off the time to gather around for my birthday. Thanks for the pressies too~
Unfortunately, there's no BBians outing... ohhh... Missed the BBians(and that someone, oh well).Today I just rot at home playing L4D since I woke up. Nice birthday celebration with L4D!!! Wth.
Looking back the past year, there are so many ups and downs, ESPECIALLY the downs, that possibly devastated me already. Especially the recent one, that really, really, just took my cheerfulness, my smile, my positive and optimistic thinking away. Giggs and Yvonne know who took my smile away(I shouldn't be blogging this, but I just wanna SHOUT OUT~). They will probably just blabber out anyway, since if the whole audi world knows about me and jojo, which only the handful of peeps know(I am guessing it could be alvin that blabbered out too), then it would be them.
For that, I have to say sorry to: Tobi, Jinni, Kiriya(why should I apologise to him, I dunno. But oh well, he is a super weird guy and wouldn't be reading this anyway), Syaoran, Shayla and Corn for the cold shoulders. Fact is, I dun have the mood to talk. To play. To not to be sianz. I just like to say for those who read this blog, the old Sharn is gone. Way gone. 希望、みえなかった. 幸せも見えない。残りは、ただ寂しいと暗い気持ちの感じ。だから笑えません。前に歩きつつき勇気はない。ない。ない ない。
And really, it seems like for some peeps which i am not close with, after not seeing them for what seems like months, it's hard for me to communicate with them. It's like, there's no common topic. Even if there is, the frequency is way off. It's weird. And I really don't feel like doing the talking. So there it goes. Maybe, afterall, I can only be with the handful of peeps that makes me comfortable. Otherwise, it's bleh.
Okie, it's time to wink wink and sleep. This coming year will probably be a peaceful year, I don't want to feel that pain anymore, so I would probably go back into games. L4d. L4d. Jubeat. Jubeat.Audi. Yeah that sounds so right. Oh, and a trip to korea/japan sounds so nice.
Adios 25 years old Sharn.
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posted by Sharn @ 11:40 PM
