Moral of the story: I don't trust anyone.
Part 1I am gonna blow this out, but how do one trust somebody's friend that you have never ever played before and see before?
So does it mean that I trust, example, miss A, and cos Mr. B is miss A's friend, I shld trust Mr. B, when I have never seen and play with him before?
And what link has trusting Mr.B got to do with miss A AND miss C? Not trusting Mr. B = not trusting the 3 of them's judgement?
So it means that, I should trust everyone that is friends to miss A AND miss C, or at least in that circumstances, I shld trust anyone miss A OR miss C brings into the hacking rm, regardless or not I know them.
And them in the most unfortunate circumstances, every1 gets banned together. I would rather use the army's motto, "Just do it, don't get caught." Heck, if I really trust pple liddat in army, I sure get my backside stabbed alot of times without knowing how I die.
Or, you can say, I don't trust anyone. Yeah anyone. I am in my own self world.
The more I think of it, the more I ponder about the word "trust". And again, I get back to the BIG question of my topic...
"what link has trusting Mr.B got to do with miss A AND miss C? Not trusting Mr. B = not trusting the 3 of them's judgement?"
For the rest who don't understand what I am writing, don't try to bother. I actually already left this topic behind when she decides to bring this up, together with alvin, for god knows what reason.
Part 2
And whatever I brought out at xin's blog, it was regarding her being a "SPARE" topic, and shld not be indirectly aimed at others, though I know it as being misleading. That I would like to apologise, and do many things on that day I will apologise.
And regarding the bp issue,the little times I bp/ubp with you, it ALL ended up in the bad note. Remember one time I thought u call me ap and then u left the room?(though later on u said it was meant at urself, or something like that).
And then during bubp games u were always harpering about "my dens TT, my dens TT" that I thought you do play bp for dens, or at the very least, not to lose them. For me it's different, when my rm says "Sharn's noob BP or UBP rm" it is really some noobs together playing noob songs, and that we will lose more than win(with the exception of some pros helping). And I do know I am lousy at normal mode and 8k, even bubp techno party and movmov, the reason which the bar died during the waves... Can't u see it? I was hitting cools and bads during bubp waves, which inevitably killed our bar. I was so guilty of letting you all lose. Full Combo 3254 bubp hit less than 800k, you shld probably alrdy know how my perfs are. Last time during evo my mov mov final scre were like... 520 to 540k + without missing until the end, which probably means.... yeah, my perf sux. How the heck do I still have the face to stay in a room when there are other pros that are better than me ard waiting for the slot to pop out? I don't like pple leeching my rooms in random games, and I don't like to leech pple until they lose the games. That's my thinking. If i leech and it's still possible to win, then it's okie. But what I think is, if there are other pros around that WILL make the team win 99% of the time, why not let them in, instead of me being inside and have the possibility of dying at the perf bar? You guys may not mind losing cos of me, but I do mind, cos I don't wanna leech until you all lose so badly, when 4 pros together in a bubp room shld not stumble on songs like movmov and 3254 cos of 1 noob.
And did I say U all never help me in bubp? That was sooo long ago, and I say I have some bubp npcs not drained yet, and no1 to help me drain them. And NOT, you all never help me bubp. It means soooo hella lot different.
posted by Sharn @ 8:48 AM
